One thing I will teach my kids is that revenge, guilt and regret rip your life apart and that you will never be happy with everything. Something will always be going horrifically wrong and 90% of the time you’ll be unaware of it until it’s completely destroyed.
All them times you walked out and I begged you to stay but you still left. Now the tables have turned and I would like you to leave. I deserve better than being spoken down to, pushed around and generally treated like dirt. I deserve more than someone who can lie and sleep with other people and not feel regret and guilt but instead makes jokes thinking it’s funny that you destroyed me and broke my heart. You turned me into the person I am and tried to destroy me then blamed me when I fell apart. I want more than to be someone’s fuck buddy and treated like a worthless piece of shit. I want what we once had love, passion, loyalty and commitment, and currently all I am to you is nothing. Well I’ve been pushed too far, yes I love you and I’d do anything to go back a year or two and prevent what happened happening, but it did and you hurt me and I thought I could move on and get over it all but you pushed me away further until I just no longer cared about fixing it. I’ve given up and now I just want it over. Deep down I still love you, I probably always will, but there’s a point you have to do what’s best for yourself regardless of what you feel.