All I want is somebody to bring me doughnuts and lay in bed with me, not come near or talk to me, just be there and occasionally let me cuddle them when I feel needy then leave when I want to sleep, then bring me more doughnuts.
Basically I just want the doughnuts…
Sometimes you look back and you miss the past, the way things were, but then you realise the past is gone and the future holds more than the past ever could have.
Looking back 6 months is insane. I was miserable. Felt like I was going no where and wasting my time. I’m now going travelling round Indonesia, lost over a stone and a half, met some incredible people, got a job I enjoy and possibly going Barcelona and Amsterdam before the New Year. I’m learning to drive and pushing myself to achieve things purely for myself. I’ve accepted the fact I’m not perfect but I’m pretty happy with the progress I’ve made to become more positive, I’ve removed negativity from my life were possible and I genuinely couldn’t be happier and couldn’t have done it without my family constantly supporting me and helping me through the bad times. So so grateful right now.
I unfollowed a lot of people a while ago on Instagram, twitter and here. This was due to the fact I was fed up of being miserable with the way I looked constantly comparing myself to people I saw as ‘perfect’ now I’m realising I am not that person, I never will be, they are probably unhappy and compare themselves to someone else. Nobody will ever be entirely happy but self acceptance is the way forward. I’m now getting happier with myself and feel like I no longer compare myself to other people as much. I am my own person, with my own doubts and insecurities, but accepting them doubts and insecurities and learning to live with them and grow past them is the best thing ever.